its like end of may now AND IM NEVER BLOGGING I KNW.
but things are getting so out of hand that i feel if i cnt pour it out somewhere i may end up in the mental hospital
sch life is hectic. and i feel so lost. i've never felt so lost before. i mean the friends i've made are all awesome and wonderful and great bt it's the sch that seriously freaks me out.
i lost control of my studies i think i lost my initial feeling when i started dancing and i lost my goals. basically im losing myself bit by bit. HAI. HAI. HAI.

i need to balance balance balance balance balanceeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i need to improve in dancing because i seemed to stay stagnant for quite somewhile! AHHHH!
i need to stop thinking about alot of stuff at night and end up not slping!
i need to prevent myself frm roaming on the streets outside at 11 plus or 12am just because i dnt feel like going home.
hc is screwing me up; i need to unscrew myself.

i should just probably stop thinking abt it because it just makes me feel more down.
and idk what i rlly want. im just stuck in the middle and is indecisive of which way to go
im becoming more and more complicated. and i hate it. wheres the simple minded dumbass jinghui. freak. FML.