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REALITY
Just an EMOTIONAL girl. I'm making my way to being 18 and i am not optimistic.
Sometimes, i believe in faith trust and pixie dust.
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@5:07 AM
 the smile is gone. OMG luh. i look at the pic above i feel sad. very very very sad because i cnt enjoy the days whereby i only worry everyday abt what to wear the next day to tour tw D: i knw every1 has to go through it but i still feel like complaining i dnt want to go through 2 years of jc. jst by thinking of that makes me have insomia because it's freaking 5.14 am nw and i cnt fall aslp -.- im very sorry to yiyang cuz i told him im knocking out at 12 plus or 1 and when i lie on the bed i cnt fall aslp at all. urgh. wtp with my body mechanism. i need slping pills man if not im going to suffer badly when sch starts... imagine at 5 plus am im nt aslp and i have to rch sch by 7.30am. *rolls eyes* lol i think i rlly have alot to complain and get cross about. like im going to be forced to start reading newspapers after living for 16 years and 7mths plus because of something called the asshole GENERAL PAPER IN ENGLISH like obviously my eng sucks and i still have to churn out with a super long essay with content consisting of current affairs. double blow >< dnt need to remind me that nh makes us order and read newspapers every mon because i dnt touch those newspapers at all. no use. and im going to complain that i have to make new friends in new sch. not that i dnt want any new friends cuz im totally not going to be a loner but i hate the feeling of being awkward initially i hope my new friends can be as nice as nh ppl like clique 8 Sclub7 and many many more cross fingers and prays hard. hai. and and and im envious of yiyang cuz his sch uniform is so much nicer by any sg's uniform by infinity times and hes still complaining that it's too big haha! and he can have long hair and fringe and dyed hair and on the other hand im going to bade my brown hair farewell D: plus im going to miss the fully air-conditioned classrooms and 5 star toilets and nice canteen food like the spicy drumlets and yee mee in nanhua... wl. i hate myself for realising all these after graduating. shld have stayed in the classrooms longer or eat more drumlets or go to the clean toilets a few more times LOL oh ya on a random note. i went to run with cora and i took a freaking half an hr to finish 4km when i can finish 3.5km in like 15min or so during roadrun last year. screw my stamina. and screw my rusty body because besides not being able to do split or tai tui or anyth, my most flexible part of the body which is nt rlly very flexible also totally fails to bend. and thats my YAO! faints luh. how to dance like that. lastly if u have survived through the whole post of complaints, i applaud u for ur patience and tyvm :D im sry theres no prize. and if ppl are wondering why i am not posting abt tw anymore, its because im too lazy to do so. expected frm lazybum jinghui right. im jst going to post pics when i feel like it heh :D replies: nat: oh hey! hahaha everything's calm and peace now. lol im shock that u still come to my blog after it being dead for so long hahaha xixi: HIHI!i miss tw alot alot too! i wna eat ji pai and go shop at feng jia ye shi leh how! and i miss the tv channels there D: xiong: LOL u finally didnt see "paper 1s suck anymore" right? hahaha! u btr faster finish ur 7mths there and fly back here then we can all go back and see nhds and think abt our sec sch years... i feel so old. hai D: Sunday, January 17, 2010  |