idk why i cnt upload pics. so this is going to be a wordy and no pics post.
1st thing. i wna thank all those who wished me happy bday be it on facebook or through sms or msn. thank you :D
thanks to clique 8 for that super cute board. i knw it took efforts to get it done.
thanks to merrien, ding, regina, xixi and vanessa for the early bday celebration. i love the magazine and xie zhen ji, love the shepherd pies and apple crumbles baked by regina, the super big and artistic J done by ding (:
thanks to nicholas, yinkar, jiaen, jingkai and others for presents and smses.


in this long period when i didnt post, theres ange's bday, sentosa dance outing and ayg pracs as well as the real performance itself on 290609
ange's bday was spent in WWW and it was superb fun even though all of us gt burnt except xiong.
dance outing was bimbo day for me cuz i didnt want to sweat so i just stoned with lingyuan and camwhored with celia's camera :X


220609 to 290609
AYG pracs. there were several scoldings frm laoshi and many times when i complained about my bruises and spoilt knees. but now, i realised there are no more chances of complaining again.
my journey of 4 years flew past. when i was in sec 1 looking at the sec 4s graduating, i thought i still have 3 more years to go. Before i knew it, im leaving.

remembering telling my friends i cnt go out after sch on wed and fri because of dance pracs,
changing into dance attire,
asking people to help me tie my hair neatly and tightly,
cutting my nails hurriedly because of attire checks,
sweating like mad because of the tedious warm up and guo san guan,
going onstage to lead warm up,
wearing dance tee on wed,
collecting dance fund,
collecting consent forms,
standing in front of nhds and talking to them,
shouting AN JING when everyone gets too noisy,
helping jnrs make up,
having exco meetings in je lib,
recording down details during the meeting.
all the above will never happen again. never. jinghui has officially retired as dance secretary.
no more passing of relays, no more bursting of smses because of relays. no more quarrelling during discussions. no more seeing and greeting laoshi every wk.


everything comes to a halt the moment we got dismissed in sch after ayg.
at the very point when nicholas said that we were dismissed, i couldnt get myself to stand up. because it all happened too fast. i hvnt listen to nicholas's last speech as the chairman. i want to hear his speech. i want to hear him say I LOVE YOU GUYS to dancers for the last time. i will never get to complain that hes being too luo suo in his debrief. i will never get to laugh loudly whenever he says touchy stuff like i have been thinking abt dance for the whole night. in the end, it was just a super short debrief. and i started crying. crying. crying.


in the morning when we left class at 10am to prepare makeup and stuff, i was still thinking why was everything so screwed up. but things started to fall in place even though laoshi scolded. just before the performance, nicholas gave a motivating speech in the function room. and we did dance cheer. and we broke down. and we ended up like ru huas. but the spirit was there. i felt the nanhuadancesociety spirit for 1 last time. and i know we did well for the performance. as for myself, i left regrets because i dropped my bamboo. that feeling of making a mistake in your last dance is very miserable, so as soon as i ran backstage, tears poured. tears smudged my makeup, but i cant control them. at that point, i knew many other sec 4s were tearing too. be it too touched, or be it being sad because our last dance was over, i dont know. the guys were crying very unglamly, with jingkai and nicholas hugging together, with tianjun having 2 black streaks of eyeliner trickling down his face, with wenxuan having tears in his red eyes. finale was high, even though many of us were still crying very unglamy. merrien was funny. she controlled herself from crying backstage and the moment she ran out with of us dancing finale, she cried.

unhappy moments with that lump of fats packed in a big oil tank would be erased from my memory because on my last day in nhds, i wanted it to be filled with happy memories :D
thank you NHDS, for giving me a wonderful 4 years. thank you, for teaching me to live life fullest as a teenager. thank you thank you thank you.